I have not written anything in several weeks and that is a real “no-no” when I want people to read and be blessed. No, I didn’t stop believing in God and His salvation plan and His miraculous abilities. However there was a roadblock that stopped me from moving forward. I will not turn around in my walk with God. I have come too far to give up now.
We preach that God can bring you through any circumstance. After all the Bible clearly explains that in several places. For example, Joshua 1:9 reads, Be strong and courageous; do not be frightened or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Also, 1 Peter 5:7, Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. These are just two scriptures and yet here I am KNOWING those scriptures, and struggling to LIVE those scriptures. Let me beak it down for you.
The doctor decides to do some routine blood work which I submit to without reservation. I return two weeks later for the results and am smacked in the face with the fact that I have several labs that have come back abnormal. The next thing I know they are making appointments for Cardiologist, Endocrinologist, Gastroenterology, Hematologist, Orthopedics, Physical Therapist, and Rheumatologist.
My head was spinning. It was almost too much to process. I was going to be spending an awful lot of time going to doctors and standing in line at the pharmacy. Oh Goody! Now is when I need to cast my cares on Christ, it seems so heavy that I can not lift it. I desire a human being to share my thoughts and pray with me, but there seemed to be no one around. I attempt to be strong, but the tears begin to flow. I whisper aloud, “The Lord is near to all who call on Him, to all who call on Him in truth. He fulfills the desires of those who fear Him; He hears their cry and saves them.” (Psalms 145:18-19)
So, I have a choice in this situation. I can allow fear to take root or I can do what I have been commanded to do. We live in these mortal bodies and everything that we deal with from the yuck in the corner of your eyes as you wake up to the dreams that you experience while you sleep ALL deal with our 5 senses. It is natural that what I see, hear, feel, touch and taste are the way I try to understand a situation. However, in a walk with God we are dealing with spiritual things. It is like trying to placed a square peg into a round hole. It just doesn’t fit.
In the spiritual realm I must believe in what I can not see. My trust is placed in someone who does not have to operate in the human realm. After all, He spoke the world into existence long before I came along. Why could I possibly think that He needs my input or understanding?
Dictionary.com defines that trust as reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence. Confidence. Hebrews 11:6, But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.
I want to be pleasing to God. I want to place my faith completely in God. The Creator of all things, the author and finisher of our faith, and the soon coming King simply asks me to trust Him. Matthew 14:22-34 is a great story to illustrate trusting God:
Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.
25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.
27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 “Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.
30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
Now, take note of verse 22. Jesus made the disciples go on ahead of himself to the other side. Go on ahead? Why did I not notice this before? Why didn’t the disciples? How else could Jesus join them on the other side without walking out to meet them?
So the disciples see Jesus come walking across the water and they immediately start using there 5 senses so they panic. (Sounds about right.) Peter calls out to Jesus and says basically (my paraphrase) “If that is really you then I want to walk out there too.” Jesus’ response was one word. (Verse 29) “Come.” There was so long explanation of what to do. There was not even a calming of the storm that raged around them. Just one simple word. I imagine that Peter being the impulsive type didn’t hesitate.
Now we do not know how far Peter walked. But he certainly takes a lot of flack for looking around at his circumstances and taking his eyes off of Jesus. How often does that same situation apply in our own lives? As long as his trust in Christ superseded his human emotions walking on water was a piece of cake. Yet the wind is whipping around was causing the waves to rise, and lap up onto his robe. The thunder is rolling deep and long, while the lightening pops and illuminates the entire night sky. It is no wonder Peter was distracted.
Yet, notice what happens when Peter began to sink. (Vs. 31):
Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
No long scolding, or rebuke. Jesus caught him. Then they walked together the rest of the way to the boat. Notice that the storm did not stop until they entered the boat. Peter held onto the master’s hand after messing up. I imagine he felt the strength that Jesus commanded rising up inside him. I wonder if when he retold the story later that the main point was that he walked on water with Jesus. It definitely would be in my retelling.
I do not totally understand the situation that I find myself in. My natural eye wants to put it into perspective, but that will never work. I must view the situation with spiritual eyes. I MUST see it as Jesus would. I must keep my eyes on the prize which is Jesus Christ.
Surrender your situation today. Give God the glory for what He has done and also what He is doing. Have Confidence in Him. Before long we will all be walking on water.